July 23, 2009 Thursday>>>I have for the very first time since I have been saved past every test today!  This is written on this day Sunday July 26, 2009>>>This has got to be the best summer of my whole life, inspite of a nasty fall I took while  trying to move a tree stump on the outskirts of my yard. I knew that I was al ready very tired but went ahead anyways and I lost my balance. I finished what I had set out to do. I moved it the best that I could.  My leg was pretty sick looking, All skin up, but looks better now. I was just thankful that I was able to get up. Because of my affliction, a souvenir from Satan.   My sister and her husband came  up from Orlando visiting some of Jack's [husband]  relatives, who lives somewhere up from here and stopped by  on their way back home. Stayed a few hours....Neva, kept saying oooooo at my leg....  Jack and Joe went shopping. Neva and I stayed home and went in her car up the hill and picked some corn, tomatoes, and squash, that James had  planted. We called Janette, and she said it was okay. We enjoyed ourselves.  A very good visit with  both of them. Jack never changes....I also  asked Joe to lets keep it quieter around here because of my cats. They are as nervous as a flea jumping around. [this is called growth]. Jesus and His growth!  July 30, 2009>>>Jessie is in the hospital. The doctors has given him two days to live. He is eighty five  year old. I asked God,  "Was I to go to the funeral"? He said NO! {Those people have always been hostile toward me}. Even before I was saved. Joe, I am sure will go.  Aug. 1, 2009>>>Some devil has put something in my pool. The pool place told Joe that the water looks good but needs to settle down. Well, It just isn't crystal clear, and something is floating on top of it and also through the water. The floor of the pool is feeling better to my feet.  I have been suspecting along these lines for sometimes, in the wake of a whole lot of other stuff which has happen to me. Now, here it tis Aug. God said two things lately, [1] mabe He will extend summer for me, and [2] that the wickedness in the world is going to get worse....Somehow I KNOW  that Joe is involved!!!!As far as Jessie, Joe now tells me that he is doing better. What a liar the devil is. I thought he was going to die so I prayed a salvation prayer. Not a healing prayer, mine you, but a salvation prayer. Now, Joe tells me that Jessie is doing better. I would be changing doctors if they told me I had two days to live and then changed their mind about it. No, it's just the lieing devil!!!!Ha, ha, and a ha. I am getting tired of Jokes played on me Jesus. HELP! Still Aug. 1, 2009 Sat. 11:30 PM. Man,  I look like death warmed over. I look at some of these pictures of me  and I looked so good. They were taken right after I got saved. Man, I was so happy! God has promised to restore me....Aug. 2, 2009 Sunday>>>Well, Jessie did pass away early this morning, and on my birthday, too. No one has ever died on my birthday, that I knew....Aug. 6, 2009>>>Well, well, well, the devil did put something in my pool. With God's help, I found out. The evidence keeps mounting. Aug. 6, 2009 10:30 PM>>>Such cowards the wicked man is! It's as if this man is a stranger. God has me stuck out here with a stranger. A dangerous one. I never knew how much of an enemy Satan really was until now. Joe has a partner. Spent several hours cleaning up the mess Satan and his cohorts did....I am considering calling the authorities out tomorrow. But only if God leads me....Aug. 17, 2009>>>I am dealing with a sociopath. I am not much into lables. It is still Satan. But it helps a great deal  to have some understanding. My whole life down the tubes. Now, all I can do is to wait on God....The vision that I received from God about six years ago sometimes I wonder if God has changed His mind. God said, "you know what you saw". Still when it comes to pass it will be really amazing to say the least. I have not been in any hurry for this to come to pass before now. But I am living with a sociopath. Have been since 1969....Man what a life. I have no choice I belong to God. I have to wait on God. Oh my goodness I am so very thankful that God gave me grace and saved me. I do feel helpless. I don't know what to do, except wait on God. All that I can do....Aug. 19, 2009>>>Well, I don't know why God would take someone who has already lived a hellish life and put her into a more hellish life! And make you love Him, so much. Everytime He stirs inside of me my heart melts. When just before I could have bitten nails....Aug. 31,2009>>>God just will not stop remanding me of an up-coming event. Something I have been carrying around with me for six years. I don't know how I am suppose to act. Only to heed and be ready at all times. Most of the time I do not even think about it. However, God tells me that He will warn me just prior to it....I know I am to leave the house immediately. I am not looking forward to this at all....As God remanded me not too long ago;  "You know what you saw!"  [a vision] Sept. 20, 2009 Sunday.>>>>Some days are almost unbearable! I have been through some dark, black tunnels, of which I could not see any day-light. God always lifts me back up where I should be. I wonder why He wants me to go through such trying, hard, times. What does He really have for me in the future? I try not to think about it much. He just keeps telling me to keep doing. This place at times seems like a prison to me. God really and literally has me tied up and bind. No way of escaping. When He does let me out to go into town I feel so out of place, until I cannot wait to get back here. Still, I do look forward to the day when I'll be let free. It seems as if that day is never going to come about. I am closer to God right now than I ever have been. I better be, after-all, He is all I have in this whole vast world. And I mean literally all I have. I am way past for a physical, but Joe keeps stealing money from me. I do not know exactly how. All I know is what God tells me. And my afflictions is not any better. Some days God's strength and His disciplines is what gets me through it. Satan's attacks can be brutal. I will keep doing, because God said, "That Satan and his cohorts are trying to discourage me". So now I know I will keep doing by God's power. Unseen enemies are the hardest to deal with. I know they are out there. Such cowards....Oh and my two precious cats are find, except sometimes they will look at the door as if they are about to take flight. What in the world can one expect with evil spirits floating around in the air. Man, when Joe leaves to go somewhere what a difference. It's as if the evil spirits goes  with him. Still, when he is no longer with us he will be missed. God and myself laugh a great deal. And believe it or not sometimes  at Joe. I do not however, let on to him about this. Not nice. But, my goodness, I cannot laugh unless God is laughing first! God keeps me sane and happy in Him. Hallelujah!  Sept. 22, 2009 Tuesday>>>Well, I have finally decided to throw all caution to the wind. I am sick and tired of Satan running me around all different direction like he's done my whole life. God help me, he won't anymore.  Oct. 8,2009>>> Sometimes I am so full of wrath toward Joe till I could choke him. But there are some days when my compassion toward him is almose more than I can bare. I am living more and more in those times. I fear for his safety. I do have God's instructions for myself. However, I hope it will be a long time....Nov. 7, 2009, Saturday>>>Once again I warned Joe of the vision which I received from God six years ago, an open vision, of his demise. All he ever does is just sit there staring out into space....I continue praying for his lost soul as God lays it upon me and my aching heart....Dec. 4,2009>>>Sometimes I feel so sorry for Joe. And I feel so helpless. I want him to be happy. I wish I could make him happy, but, I don't know how. "Happiness must come from God". I went shopping yesterday and had a great, good time. Satan, praise the living God, kept his distance....I must remember, victories comes only by God....Thank you JESUS+++ Dec.11, 2009>>>>God said, "you have great potential. As some will testify". I said, "thank you, but great potential won't get you anywhere". He said, "it might if you keep trying". End of conversation. I laughed a little....Dec. 16, 2009>>Every prophecy which God has given to me as of this date has come true but one....I asked Him, "suppose I am still living like this for the next ten years, then, I'll have to for that long be carrying this around with me. He said, "you stay alert until the prophecy is fulfilled".....Dec.28,2009>>>Satan has struck again. Joe, who Satan can use so good, put Josey my cat in my bedroom for treats. He was to shut the door, because Josey was acting up. So, Joe did just that. Then Josey disappeared . The only way he could've gotten out of my room was through the window, only it was closed, screen in place. I figures the screen must had been let out from the outside of the house. Joe just had to open the window from inside and out he went or he was pushed out or thrown out. Josey does not dig his way out like Joe said he did the time he disappeared off my screen porch. Always as if he just vanished, my cat that is. The female cat, frosty is fine. Josey is fine. I finally got Josey back into the house. However, both of my cats nearly got into it with one another. Josey is in an awful mood. He is back in my room, until later. I was thinking that dogs will come home a waging, but cats comes home a spitting. How in this world can Satan be so sneeky? I can't stand guard over them all of the time. I stayed in prayer the whole time, and shall continue to do so. The evidence keeps mounting. Well, it turns out that there is a hole in my floor that I had never notice before. And this is how Josey got out. So I guess we will be sleeping in my office until it gets fixed. Jan. 9,2010>>>>>God said, "I don't want you to be too comfortable in your demise". I told Him this morning, " I am so glad that I haveYou to help me". And He wants me to learn to stand up against injustice. That's what this is all about. That's what it has always been about. God does not enjoy seeing His people suffer. But until you do suffer you cannot know nor understand other people sufferings. That is why we have so many out there who don't mind afflicing pwELL,ain on others. They do not know what it's like. Well, they ought to find out.....Jan. 11,2010>>>Joe is really getting worse, so, God has told me to keep my cats close and to keep my house up as best I can. But, that it would require some sacrifice. I won't be on the comp as much. God wants me to stay focused, too. Keep my eyes open. Remain alert. So I am going to obey Him, as always.....Jan. 13,2010>>>Living with Joe is like living with a dead man. I look at him, I see no life. I know what Satan can do. I see it with my own eyes...... Satan, you are not dealing with a fool here. I belong to the living God. Your people may be fools, but not God's people, no....Jan. 13,2010>>>>Well, Joe is in the hospital. He should be home tomorrow. Sure is peaceful here, now.......Feb. 27,2010>>>>Joe is back in the hospital. This makes several times now in the past few months. I tried to get in touch with Benji. No return calls so far. I called Dad. Neva was not home. I believe that Joe is afraid. I just don't know why, exactly.... March 2, 2010>>> Joe, is still borowing money from these check cashing paces. Three humdred here and there. I do not know what he is doing with the money. I HATE IT. I REMEMBER HIM TELLING ME ONE DAY THAT YOU JUST PAY AND PAY. This is all I know about this....I am going to try with God's help, to put a stop to it.